“No, I’m not fat.”

“No, I’m not fat.”

A few months ago, I stared at myself in the mirror and didn’t like what I saw.

Growing up, my weight has never been a problem. All through high school and college, I was size 2 despite the fact that I stuff my face with junk food and carbs every chance I get. I never really noticed how much weight I was gaining until that moment when I tried on my last summer’s shorts and realized I can’t even get them past my thighs. Suddenly, I felt fat.

I never thought I would have these thoughts… ever. There was this overwhelming insecurity crawling all over me every time I see the little bulge across my tummy or the slight double chin I sported in photos. The feeling of not wanting to be in my own body took over me, and at times, I couldn’t think of anything else. Every time I saw someone else’s slim body, I suddenly wanted to be them. The constant struggle of wanting to eat but also wanting to lose the weight I gained made me depressed. I berated myself every time I had one more piece of chocolate or that extra serving of pasta. The words fat and ugly spiraled into my head like a never-ending tornado tearing away all my confidence and leaving no shred of acceptance of my own self.  Continue reading ““No, I’m not fat.””

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Long Live Ziggy!

Long Live Ziggy!

A few minutes ago, I found out that David Bowie passed away. From being the ultimate rock icon, Ziggy Stardust to the menacing yet sexually awakening goblin king, Jareth… He has been a big part of my youth. I remember listening to Rebel Rebel as I got ready to go out to my first club. Or how I laid in bed, earphones in place for Letter to Hermione… because really, that’s the only proper way to listen to that song.

It is with great sadness that I compile my favorite songs now as a tribute to an amazing artist. He will be with us forever. There are rock stars but he is a constellation.

“It’s only forever, not long at all.” Goodbye Ziggy Stardust. Continue reading “Long Live Ziggy!”

Film Roll Stories | vol. 1

Film Roll Stories | vol. 1

David and I sat waiting for the Shinkansen to arrive when I realized that I forgot my camera. Even when David suggested we go back home and get it, I knew it was too late. I literally started bawling my eyes out right on the train tracks, totally inconsolable! Thankfully, my boyfriend is a problem solver. He suggested buying some disposable cameras instead since I didn’t even bring my lomo cam! Talk about being forgetful. It could be a nice challenge for me to photograph without seeing the end result until after developing the film. I was definitely on board with this suggestion and was pleasantly surprised with the result! Continue reading “Film Roll Stories | vol. 1”

Back to Edo

Back to Edo

Warning: Photo Heavy Post

Kawagoe is a small town located in Saitama prefecture. They are famous for their period buildings, candy lane and sweet potatoes! Our day in Kawagoe started with lunch at the famous unagi restaurant, Ogakiku. It’s currently the #1 restaurant in Kawagoe according to Tripadvisor. I thought it was the perfect place for David to try his first unagi dish. The restaurant itself was quiet. Most of their patrons are locals who seem to know the staff by name. I believe we were the only tourists there which was surprising because everyone talks about this restaurant!

The meal offerings were scarce but we did come so that David could try the unagi so it was alright. I’m not a huge fan of eel so I opted to try their teriyaki chicken served with a seafood soup and soboro donburi (ground chicken rice bowl). All I can say is that it was amazing! The chicken was tender and the sauce really comes through. When I saw how big the soboro donburi was, I was hesitant as it was huge! I did manage to finish the bowl so I can’t complain. It was that good! Continue reading “Back to Edo”

The Beatles are finally on Spotify!

The Beatles are finally on Spotify!

After a long wait, The Beatles’ albums are finally available on Spotify! Best Christmas gift ever! To commemorate their wonderful music, this week’s Thursday Tunes is a compilation of my favorite Beatles’ songs. Blast this from your speakers this Christmas and reminisce the good old days where lyrics actually mean something! Continue reading “The Beatles are finally on Spotify!”

Got Noodles?

Got Noodles?

Yokohama is the second largest city in Japan located in the south of Tokyo. People flock here for the amazing Chinese food, theme park and date activities. David and I originally planned to go there because I wanted to see Cai Guo-Qiang’s There and Back Again exhibit in the Yokohama Art Museum. Since it was a bit far from Tokyo, we decided to stay there for a whole day instead of traveling to a different place. One of the things I wanted to visit was the Cup Noodle Museum as I’ve heard so many good things about it. Continue reading “Got Noodles?”

Thursday Tunes #6

Thursday Tunes #6

I was listening to Florence + The Machines, a couple of weeks ago and discovered a song which I didn’t even know was in their album. “All This And Heaven Too” is a breathtaking piece of music that speaks about the inadequacy of spoken word to express genuine and unconditional feeling of love you experience in life.

That’s why I decided to compile songs that can help us convey our emotions for all the times we cannot fully express the matters of the heart. Continue reading “Thursday Tunes #6”

Daibutsu, Green Tea & Music Boxes

Daibutsu, Green Tea & Music Boxes

Waking up to dreary skies, we desperately wanted to lay in bed and cuddle the whole day. It was the day after David arrived in Tokyo, and he was completely exhausted. However, with the limited time, we didn’t want to deviate from our itinerary and miss out on key places to visit in Japan. So early Monday morning, we were up and ready to go to the seaside city of Kamakura.

Warning: Photo-heavy Post

Kamakura 1

Despite being averse to self-portraits, David looks handsome in each one. Here he was waiting in Ikebukuro for the Shonan-Shinjuku line train to Kamakura. After which, we took bus 23 heading to Hokokuji temple. As soon as we got off the bus, I pulled out my phone to look at Google maps. I recall asking him why the other tourists were going the opposite direction. I was smugly thinking they were going to get lost. Little did I know, it would be me making the mistake leading us to a totally different temple! Continue reading “Daibutsu, Green Tea & Music Boxes”

Onsen Experience

Onsen Experience

No matter how much you plan your trip, it doesn’t always go the way you want to. David’s two week vacation in Tokyo has been riddled with shoddy weather and closed attractions. Our trip to Hakone was actually a spur of the moment incident. We were originally going to Nikko but recently found out that the temple we were going to visit was under renovation. It’s a good thing there are a lot of great places in Japan that can be reached by the train in two hours or less.

My mom suggested going to Hakone for the onsen (Japanese hot spring). As I have also never been, I thought it would be a great experience for both of us! We found Hakone Yuryo and called ahead for a private onsen reservation. It was a little bit pricey but worth it for the privacy. Usually, people with tattoos are not allowed in an onsen. Not that we have any ourselves but for those who have, a private onsen may be the solution!

We took the Odakyu Limited Express Romance Car early in the morning in Shinjuku and arrived at 10. There was a free shuttle bus from the station that took us directly to the onsen. However, we decided to walk around a bit since our reservation was not until 11. Continue reading “Onsen Experience”

What a hoot!

What a hoot!

I absolutely adore owls! While I knew I wanted to visit an owl café, I didn’t want to wait in line too long. When I found out about Akiba Fukurou and their reservations needed rule, I knew it was the perfect place to visit!

Owl Cafe 4

Guests are asked to be in front of the store 10 minutes before the reserved time. The staff will hand out a booklet (English & Japanese) explaining some rules on interacting with owls. You will then pay for the admission fee. Continue reading “What a hoot!”